Best goalkeeper

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Tan Jia Hao
Catholic High 2005-2008
Wushu Captain 2007-2008
Vice-head Prefect 2007-2008
Anderson Junior College 2009-2010
Someone who is good in nothing
tjh_stealth@hotmail.com

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Friday, September 30, 2011

Phew! Just managed to recover my password for this blog haha. Somehow its dead for half a year. Ok i shall start predicting EPL matches every week haha!

Everton vs Liverpool 1-2
Aston Villa vs Wigan 1-0
Blackburn vs Man City 0-3
Man United vs Norwich 4-0
Sunderland vs West Brom 3-1
Wolves vs Newcastle 1-2
Bolton vs Chelsea 0-2
Fulham vs QPR 0-0
Swansea vs Stoke 1-1
Spurs vs Arsenal 3-0

You'll Never Walk Alone
The Best Goalkeeper will walk with you* 12:01 AM

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Friday, March 25, 2011

People always say that 好心有好报 and i always believe in that. I always do whatever i can to help people. Be it donations for flagday, help blind man cross the road, give up seats to the needy, and etc etc. BUT. Why do i always get rubbish life? I didnt do bad things wad, why got retribution one? I dont know why, things just keep screwing up for me. I dont know if is a blessing in disguise but apparently i would rather things go in a normal way for me.

Screwing up A levels is not something fun. All the frustrations and irritations and stress come when my house phones keep ringing. All looking for me when i dont normally have any friends calling me via house phone one. I just dont know how to tell them. What? Tell them i screw up? Or tell them okay la still can? I dont even know how to answer this kinda question.

Then now i end up coming back to AJ again. With everyone looking at me with a shocked face. That kinda pressure and loneliness, wah, really tearing me apart. Suddenly put me into a class, and one week gone, i still havent make a lot of new friends yet. Most of them are still as cold/hostile as ever. I cant believe that i gotta spend this kinda life man.

Ok perhaps if i think of a positive side, at least i can represent AJ soccer. Finally. But the thought of doing A levels all over again. Haiz. I dont know how to describe leh.. Now all that i hope is i just need to study here until mid-year. Then NTU accepts me and i complete the A division soccer. Then quickly get into army. Like that jiu shiok. =)

All the best to me. Must pray everyday alr. Really hope NTU will want me. Then everyth settled.

You'll Never Walk Alone
The Best Goalkeeper will walk with you* 10:23 PM

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Friday, September 24, 2010

Hi blog. Long time no see. I dont know what am i going to say here. I just feel like saying whatever is within me - all the things that i've kept within myself for some time. Maybe its not something new, but its something that keeps coming back to me even though i keep chasing it away.

Is it so difficult to pass a freaking paper in AJ? For 2 years in AJ i've not passed a freaking paper. Retest not counted. Even if its retest that i passed, the results suck to the max. No words can describe. People like Kenneth Tan get back AAC, and YiXiu get AAB, then me? EED. Those papers are retarded, i know it, yet i cant manage to score. Maybe its really not a good thing to get promoted to J2? Or maybe i shouldn't even come to AJ in the first place?

I always tell myself that i must pass i must pass, but then when i am doing the paper, most of the time i cant do the question and that only implies one thing - i am not going to pass again. Last time, i always didnt study and didnt prepare for exams cos i still have the "Cat High last-min" mentality, but after the promos i already know that it is impossible to achieve last min success. I studied, i practised TYS and other JC papers. So what? In the practice papers itself i already got so many questions that stunned me. I asked, i did more and i thought i was prepared for this prelim. Not all subjects though, but Physics at least.

I really had the hope and confidence to pass. Its some kind of feeling that i dont have in my entire AJ life. It was so good to have that feeling especially when you come out and discuss with your friends without finding many wrong answers. Hope was high. But its because of this high hope that i fell heavier. I thought i had the chance to score for mcq when i came out. Not many wrong answers when i discussed with my classmates, but when i get back the results? 17/40. WTF. One of the lowest in class. My only hope for passing a paper is gone within milli seconds. TOTALLY GONE. Especially when i see other people can easily get 27 to 29, i cant help but to feel a sense of despair. I felt hopeless. I...

Thinking of how i could even get owned in mcq, i really think i am a failure. So whats with all the practises and tuitions and consultations? All get digested and come out as SHIT. LOADS OF SHIT. Then in paper 2? 21/72. Another piece of rubbish paper done by me. So what if Louis and Adil get lower marks than me? I dont feel happy at all. Winning them 1 or 2 marks? I'm still as lousy right?

Whats the point of studying so much? Who can help me? Bell ring = my whole class go home. YY leh? Of course is with Sheena de wad. Jacq? She doesnt take physics and maths. Who else? Edwin? He's good and he's friendly and he's willing to help me, but he's always so busy. Teachers? I dont know its coincidence or what, whenever i have a consultation slot with my teachers, its either they last min cant make it or they gotta go after a short while. I'm on my own again.

Sometimes, i just couldnt hide my sorrows. I always tried to just my joker side to cover away my sadness, but there are times when i really cant do it. I cant hide anymore. What am i going to do? Someone please guide me? At times i really feel the ache within me. Heartache or whatever, i dont know how to describe. What can i do? Study or not study i still fail. A levels coming soon and i cant even pass anyth. I'm just leading a screwed up life! When can i really get focused and study well and pass a fucking paper? I'm stressed, and i feel that i am no longer the happy JH i used to be already. I want this whole thing to be over soon, but i know i am not prepared for this major exam. Maybe i wont make it? Maybe i will? I dont know. I really dont know. I dont know how i can help myself to achieve better results.

SOMEONE HELP ME PLEASE.

You'll Never Walk Alone
The Best Goalkeeper will walk with you* 8:10 AM

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Thursday, August 19, 2010

I dont mind staying back everyday to study. In fact, i should and i would. But having to make it compulsory and have to scan fingerprint is ridiculous. If the school is so rich to invest in this kind of thing, why not produce more money for the welfare and interest of the students? Why everything need us to pay and we always have to dig our pockets for everything and little help is given to FAS students?

Whats the point of making me stay back when they cant be sure that wi will be studying throughout until 6pm? Whats the point of making me stay back when no one wants to stay back with me to help me? Whats the point of making me stay back when there are god damn bloody lot of fuckers fucking around in the school and creating noise pollution?

When i really need to rest, i cant cos i have to be in school till that late. Will i be productive when i get home? No! The school doesnt think of the fact that we do get tired. Yes its time for us to work really hard, but we are no machines. We do get tired and when we do not get the rest, we snowball our tireness and the next day fall asleep in school. Then? Kena scolding again. And it goes on and on and on...

You'll Never Walk Alone
The Best Goalkeeper will walk with you* 1:34 AM

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Wednesday, June 2, 2010

I don't know what happen. Maybe its just cos that i'm too tired or too stressed or whatever. I just need to spam some words here. Its not easy to maintain a relationship for near 15 months, but since we are able to do it, i treasure this relationship. I see it as very important to me.

I've always been neglecting my friends for you. Every break i've been sitting with your class. Everytime i chose you over my classmates. Mahjong time i reply your sms before i continue, not bothering about other ppl even if they are waiting. But dont you think you are starting to neglect me? Always telling me how much you want to see me, but when i want to meet you, you tell me you want to focus on studies. When you want to see me, i appear in front of you. When i want to see you, notes and tutorials come before me. Nevermind. After 4 hours of GP i went to eat and rush back to meet you and do work tgt, your eyes never leave the handphone. Only when you want to go for a jog then you stopped playing, look at me for less than 3 sec, and left.

And there comes another problem. Another ugly son-of-a-bitch. I dont care but i just feel like scolding him. Didnt i tell you my sixth sense very accurate one? Even w/o knowing him or looking at him i know that he's not that simple. I know that he likes you. Why deny? So that you can feel btr? Or to make me feel btr? Because i worse when you deny it. So what if he is very kind and generous? Buy you a cup of milo that costs $2.20, and help you get rid of cheese, and keep making you eat which makes him like me? I'll never accept that. NEVER.

And how long do you know him? And you 2 keep msging each other? I didnt say much about it cos i didnt want you to feel that i am interfering you in making friends. But dont you think he's crossing the line already? Know you on sat/sun, msg you on sun, msg you on monday and meet you to visit Jason tgt? After that keep msging? And he even somehow appears to be at the AMK library when he knows that you are gng to jog at the AMK park. WOW! Is that pure coincidence? Or that he purposely created this coincidence? Dont you find it suspicious that this whole thing is more than just conincidental? With the fact that he likes you? And why do you agree to go meet him so readily? He said go meet him and you just went? He gives you some chocolate and you just accepted it? And tell me that you only see him for like 3 sec? You only saw me for 3 sec. Since last sat until now this guy has been seeing you more frequently than i see you. This guy has spent more time tgt with you. Dont you think that its more than just normal? You know him for 4 days, you've met him 3 times. I know you for 15 months, we met for 2 days out of the 3. With less than one hour each time. WOW, AMAZING.

FUCK MY LIFE!!!

You'll Never Walk Alone
The Best Goalkeeper will walk with you* 7:04 AM

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Friday, May 14, 2010

Wah damn long never come to blog alr.. my blog is like damn dead now. maybe only houseflies will come visit.. Anyway, i just had to comment, if not i will burst.

FML. Alvin Yeong simply doesnt recognise me as the vice captain is it? Why is it that when he has something to tell the whole EXCO committee he didnt send the sms to YY and me, but instead to YY and Angeline? Its like.. i dont know what to say. Send to captain is ok. Send to captain AND vice-captain is ok. Send to captain AND vice-captain AND secretary is ok. Sent to captain and secreatry without vice-captain, to me, its not ok.

So it means that all those things that i did is not visible to him? Just because i did things alr then pass to others to further touch up and to show him, it means that its not done by me? How many things that i've done is visible to him? The EXCO voting list was done by me, give to Angeline to do in softcopy and send to him to edit and print. After printing, he only approach Angeline to ask her whether the voting list is ok or not. Perhaps not knowing that i was done by me. Ok nevermind. All he know was to call me out of the blue and ask me questions about jiao lian, or something that he/YY/Angeline didnt tell me before. How to answer his questions like that?

School is also putting pressure on me. Trying to catch up on homework, doing tutorials and stuff. There are still many things that i dont know. I'm still failing tests, cant seem to have the good memory that i used to have last year. Ever since promos, my memory like from some genius become some old man. What if i really cannot make it? I cannot do things fast but everything is moving at a fast pace. I cannot afford to have a repeat of last year.

Weight issue is also starting to bother me now. From the 6/8 pacs in sec 4 until the life buoy around my waist now, its so damn obvious that i'm getting fat. Everyone is saying it to me. Wushu ppl, family, girlf, classmates, everyone. I always just smile smile and seem that nothing has happened, but hey, i've been eating less and less, but the weight is going up. What can i do? Exercise? It seems to be the only option, but how much time can i devote to exercise so that i can lose weight? Given that i need more time than others to study and do well for my upcoming exams.

Money is also another issue. No money no money no money. Plus i am going for Physics tuition so every month gotta take more money from Mum. She is alr earning very little and i still gotta take money from her, feel so bad, but i dont have so much money to pay for it. Wanna save money, but every week only has $40 which includes my daily expenses, class fund, bus concession and whatever whatever.. Cannot tahan alr..

Everyday i may still seem to be a joker, but in fact, there's really a lot of things in my mind. So many things for me to worry about, and i'm getting stressed up. The feeling isnt good. And still got Napfa to worry about. How? Die lor, come Aj fail everything. Its so damn demoralising.. But what can i do? Just FML lor..

You'll Never Walk Alone
The Best Goalkeeper will walk with you* 8:22 AM

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Thursday, March 11, 2010

Please please please... get well soon!!

You'll Never Walk Alone
The Best Goalkeeper will walk with you* 4:02 AM

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